How talking with a ghost got me blogging Part 2 – Welcome back, grab a cuppa, and get comfy. And make sure you have your back to the wall. Nah, I’m only kidding.
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In Part 1, I explained how stressed and anxious I was in not knowing which path to take and how to go about it. I had little money and only a few years until that money ran out. And, what I can only explain as being guided by a friend of mine who passed away years previously. I found myself embarking on yet another new journey.
My last job took me all over the world, traveling for weeks or months on end. I didn’t want to use dog sitters, so my options for work was coming to a standstill.

Besides, I wanted to fulfill my ambitions in life and put my creative skills towards my projects.
After finding a web designer to start the ball rolling for one of my projects. I had begun to look into marketing. The web designer rightly so, informed me that if my website was going to be successful and have traffic being driven to it. I would need to pay someone to market it. Either that or I would have to do it.
So, during my research and there was a lot of it. It wasn’t long before I found myself down many rabbit holes and so overwhelmed the anxiety and stress just came back up and struck me.
I had been listening to Eckhart Tolle ‘The power of now’ YouTube recordings with Oprah Winfrey where they break down his book into the 10 chapters and then discuss them on air. So many golden nuggets, if you haven’t already watched this, I can highly recommend it.
There I was listening to his calming voice when an ad came on. This was most annoying, but practicing what Eckhart teaches, I kept calm and present and just skipped it.
Not long after that, another came on and another. Slowly I was feeling myself getting angry, but I kept my awareness and carried on. Laughing to myself acknowledging this awareness.

I mean, I remember thinking, ‘Do they know who Eckhart is?’ I mean really all these ads.
However, this time as I was practicing being aware and present or in the NOW as Eckhart suggests. I was actually listening to this ad and what he was saying.
Isn’t it interesting how messages come to us through other people’s words?
Thinking back on those words now, I couldn’t tell you what they were, but something felt right to do so, and that is why I clicked on the ad and entered my email details to receive the same free information he did and was offering to send me.
By clicking the image, you will be guided to the Online Demand Workshop (aka my Garage) where a separate window will open. And, you will have the option to enter your email details.
I mean he was living his life to his purpose, having fun, didn’t look stressed, and all he did was implement the skills he learned through this marketing school.
That’s it! Sorted a marketing school maybe that’s what I needed, but then again, perhaps that was a scam too?
My thoughts came back to the task at hand, which was a fresh cuppa and finish watching the many webinars out there. This one was on how to drive traffic to your website. Something to do with SEO Search Engine Optimization.
The weekend passed along with tons more information from online sources and a load more Post-it notes. Soon I was going to need a bigger table! All this information was taking me down one rabbit hole after another. The feeling of becoming overwhelmed was increasing by the minute, and so was the pounding of my heart in my chest.
The dulcet tones of Eckhart Tolle were becoming a distant memory.
I looked out of the window and watched the trees swaying in the wind. I called out to my friend, to the universe, to God, to whoever would listen.
‘What am I doing? I can’t do this, I’m not clever enough. I can’t cope with all this information. You’re an idiot, Michele. Why did you think you could do this website in the first place? I don’t understand any of it!’.
I looked up to the ceiling my hands on my chest, tears pouring down my face and shaking. I shouted aloud to my friend, ‘I’m going to fail you and myself!’
As you can see, by this time I was having a huge pity party all to myself.
I took to the sofa, grabbed a cushion, pulled it to my chest, and buried my head into it sobbing.
It felt as though time had stood still. I don’t know how long I’d been sat there because I was too occupied with the negative thoughts swirling around my head.
Then my mind went blank, as though a thick fog had come into it. All I could do was listen to my own breathing.

Have you ever been that still and silent that even silence seems too loud? Then a compelling thought came into my head.
‘Watch a film.’
‘What?’
‘Watch a film’ came the reply.
I sat there holding the cushion close to my chest, waiting for the next instruction.
Then the title came in loud and clear.
‘Beauty and the Beast.’
‘What?’ I repeated. Then I thought that’s a bit random, I don’t even know if I have that film?
– Silence like your eyes are fixed on that flashing cursor waiting for the next sentence to appear. –
Nothing just more silence and the occasional sniff by me.
‘Well, OK,’ I thought let’s see if I’ve got it.
I got up from the sofa crumpled tissue in hand, placed the cushion back on the couch behind me. Wiped my eyes and then blew my nose. In that order, otherwise, it would have been yukky.
The film started, and I sat back on the sofa hugging, the cushion as I watched them with an indifferent gaze. I found myself actually enjoying it, and my mood became lighter. However, towards the end of the film, my attitude changed dramatically.
Spoiler alert. When the spell is broken, the characters become true versions of themselves. They all rush to hug their loved ones and each other.
I was now inconsolable. Grabbing another tissue from the box, which by now was positioned by my side. I sobbed so hard I thought that my heart would pop out of my chest. However, the cushion was so tightly squeezed to my chest, so, fortunately, there wasn’t a chance that would happen!
Realizing that this reaction was not normal, as ‘Beauty and the Beast’ is not that sad, something dawned on me: this film had shown me the very thing I was missing in my life. I’ve made friends here in France but connecting with people who really share common interests and being able to have deep chats about life were two absent things.
I had just come out of a very toxic relationship and moved to an area where I didn’t know anyone except the post lady, with whom I would only exchange a quick ‘Bonjour.’ I wiped my eyes and nose and opened my FB to connect with some of my friends and family.
No, that wasn’t what I needed. I felt another urge to check my emails. As I scrolled through, deleting this one and that, I heard a very distinct ‘STOP’ just as I was moving my finger to delete the next email. I stopped, and there it was; the very email sent to me from the ad I had clicked on Friday.
I opened the email, and there was a link for a video series. After watching the first one, I was ready to watch the second…
And then, the third…
and then the fourth…
and so on.
By clicking the image, you will be guided to the Online Demand Workshop (aka my Garage) where a separate window will open. And, you will have the option to enter your email details.
I continued all the way through until the end. Can you guess what they were talking about? Marketing, and how being part of a community offering 24/7 support can help you move your online business forward.
BOOM! And there it was right in front of me. I had asked, and it was given, OK, so I shed a few tears and shouted out loud a few times. BUT my questions had been answered. As I realized what had happened, I broke out in goosebumps. I looked up and said, ‘You knew all along, thank you, my friend.’
You see, I had to go through the whole process of realizing what it was I lacked even though I knew I needed direction. I ‘hadn’t realized how much I needed to feel part of a community, something much greater than me.

Ready for action,
ready for my new direction and focus.
Be the creator of my own destiny and start moving forwards. My eyes and ears had been opened, and my heartfelt calm. I grabbed my note pad and pen and got to work.
You may have realized that technology for me did not come easy. In fact, learning new skills is quite challenging, especially now as I keep forgetting things, so I have to write most words down.
My fear and negative self-talk have not left me entirely. However, it is far less than it ever was, and I have replaced the negative talk with conversations, which are a lot more pleasant. I am learning to like me more even love me more and be more gentle and less critical.
I also try to keep away from those who only like to give destructive criticism. There are plenty of those people about. But then I look at where they are and ask myself. Who would I rather have in my life offering me advise?
Those who like to moan about what they don’t have and do nothing about it. Or, those who DO do something about it and are willing to offer you help and guidance in taking decisive action steps towards your goals in life?
All the greatest successful motivators and mentors out there in our social media channels. All say that you become that what you focus on. Those that you surround yourself with will have a significant impact on your life. So be careful who you choose to hang around.
Be prepared to fall and brush yourself off but keep going and keep moving forward.
But most importantly, be happy with your choices.
- Maybe you’re looking to get out of a 9-5 grind? Or your job doesn’t align with your purpose and values anymore?
- You feel empty or lost or even lack of direction?
- Maybe you already have products you want to learn and how to market them?
- Products or no products you may just want to start a business of your own, become independent and be your own boss?
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But, time is the most valuable asset of them all, so the real question here is…

Whatever it is that drives you in life, it will involve the internet. Sad as that may be for some because if your reading this, then the internet has become a part of your life too.
So, leverage that successfully and you will have the key to your own kingdom of heaven.
To finish, then I have two more things I would like to share before I go.
The first –
Before I started to watch the video series, I searched for a clean note pad as most of them were used up from the previous note-taking.
Earlier that week, I had been sorting out one of my drawers and came across a notepad my sister had sent me one Christmas a few years ago.
It was clean in that it was free from my scribbles. But not from my sister’s scribbles may I add. We have this little game we play and write in each other’s notebooks we send to one other. Only a short note one page somewhere hidden in the book.
‘Dearest Sister,
Don’t lose your ideas, but don’t just write them down and forget them.
Make them. Do them. Make them real and give them life.
Love you to the moon and back plus much, much more, your sister.
P.s Rockets were mere ideas which started on paper’
Christmas 2016
The title of the note pad was –
‘EVERY REALLY NEW IDEA LOOKS CRAZY AT FIRST’

The second thing is –
The same video series I watched I would like to offer to you. So if your feeling anything like I then check it out for yourself because you never know what ghostly guidance bought you to read this blog in the first place?
By clicking this link or on the image below. A separate window will open, and you will be able to enter your email details just like I did. Then I can send you the same video series that I was sent.
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